Adjusting

Emily was a parrot for Halloween this year.  She loved dressing up and trick-or-treating!

My word for the last little while has been "adjust."  Adjust to having a baby.  Adjust to a new schedule.  Adjust to paying a new bill.  Adjust to Emily's moods.  Adjust to a new idea.  To a new feeling.  To a new routine.  To a new friendship.  I feel that with my type A personality I tend to run around as fast as possible without really settling in and actually experiencing the things that are going on in my life.  So probably since Emily was born I had a moment where I wanted to stop being the way I was and take a step back for a minute or two; or a year; or just however long it takes; maybe forever.  I feel like I have changed for the better, but it is still hard when I'm in a moment of "adjustment."
 

The warm, beautiful sun was out last Sunday and we basked in it's glory all afternoon in the backyard.

For example, a big "adjusting" moment happened when Scott was hired on at Mountain Ridge Helicopters.  All of a sudden he was gone a lot.  For our whole married life we have gone to school and work together.  We have been so lucky to just be doing all the same things.  We wake up together, eat every single meal together, get ready together and that is just how it has always been.  I realize we are in the minority.  Then back in March, Scott miraculously was hired as a flight instructor and we were so excited, but the "adjusting" to it has proven to take months.  I would still say we are in the "adjustment" mode.  I have to keep telling myself to just take a breath, relax and settle into the new reality we are living. 

See Emily's shiner?  She for real fell in the bathtub and hit the edge very hard.

Another example would be "adjusting" to the new seasons; specifically the cold weather.  I am such a summer person.  I love the sun and the blue sky and the warmth.  I love not having to wear so many clothes.  I especially love swimming and being in or near any type of water.  The colder weather is such a challenge for me.  I woke up this morning to snow.  We just had Halloween.  Snow shouldn't be around until at least December!  I used to be in such a good habit of going on long walks with Emily and Sue in the mornings.  Now I curl up underneath a blanket and watch "Dog, the Bounty Hunter" until I have to get ready for the day; which isn't normally until 2pm.

I have no motivation to go outside when the weather changes.  I have to remember my word, though.  "Adjust."  I really want to embrace the seasons and try to be festive and enjoy all the new things that come along with..... the cold, biting wind and my aching ears when I walk down the street.  I want to love the crunch of dirty black snow.  I want to want to put on my exercise clothes and then a sweater and then a coat and then gloves and then ear warmers and then a hat and sometimes even a mask just so I can exercise and keep my body from getting all soft and squishy and fat.  I need to join a gym.

My "adjustment" to the cold weather isn't going so well.  The sad thing is that the majority of the year is cold weather and the especially hard months are January through May.  Why can't summer be 9 months long and winter be only 3?  I keep reminding myself that I need to take a breath, relax and remember that "adjusting" takes time.  Just roll with it and allow myself to watch "Dog" until I can embrace the colder weather and "adjust" to the change.

Apparently my cat is not "adjusting" well either.  She has been outside then inside then outside and now she just asked to come back inside.  She can't get used to the cold weather!  C'mon just let there be a really warm winter this year, like 80 degrees would be perfect.  I won't complain about changes in my life ever again.  PLEEEEEEEEEASE!